I am sure I am not the only person who has an internal dialogue that runs sometimes as I go about my day. The little voice can help me remember things that I need to do, rehearse how I want to say things, or remind myself of commitments and intentions. The little voice is with me also when I run. Usually it is an encouraging voice, but the other day...
LV: Hey! This is a lot of running today!
ME: Oh, it's not so bad. Just 2 more 2-minute running intervals after this one, and there's a walking rest in between. We've done it before.
LV: Yeah, but I'm tired. I worked all day. My feet are tired. This is boring.
ME: Four more minutes of running and a few more minutes of walking aren't so bad. We can do it!
LV: It won't make a difference if we finish the running now. We can walk longer. It's almost as good as running. I'm tired.
ME: Well, we could just run 5 intervals instead of 7. I'm sure it wouldn't set us back substantially.
LV: Good! That's just what I was thinking.
ME: But what if we get to the Sun Run in April, and we run 8 kilometers, then we say to ourself, "That's enough. We can just stop now. We don't need to run 10 kilometers really."
(by this time LV and me are running our 6th interval)
LV: Well, that's 6 intervals. Surely we can finish running and just walk. It won't hurt to skip the 7th interval.
ME: So then, at the Sun Run, we can run 9 kilometers then give up and say, "Nine kilometers is really as good as 10 kilometers. We don't need to run 10 kilometers, do we?"
LV: Oh shut up you smarty-pants.
ME: HA HA! (we are running our 7th interval by now)
ME: See. We did it! I knew we could.
LV: So did I. I was just messing with you.
ME: Thanks very much for that.
I am glad that I can almost always discern when it's right to heed my little voice's advice, and when it's right to talk back to it and say no. I have a feeling it's going to come around soon anyway, and act like this was all its idea in the first place.
question: do you have the little voice? what does it say to you?
mompoet - listening to my head, and my heart, with curiosity and openness